In Memory

I won't be your back up plan. I won't be second best. I deserve to be above all the rest. I've never once lied to you. And I can't believe any of the words you say. You still act and think the same way. It takes me back to when my heart bled every night. Where inside my mind there was a constant fight. I thought I could embrace this and it could be new. But the same old shit never escapes you. I gave you trust and watched it break, offered it again and my heart was crushed. Now the only thing that beats for you is dust. I can never again offer you trust. You said all these things before and they became lies. And you pretend you're not there like you can't hear my cries. I forgave you, I'm sorry thats the best I can do. If we aren't together then I can't lose you. I won't have to feel that pain ever again. And I can continue living from within. I deserve all of some one. Not part of them and then their done. I guess the past shouldn't be repeated. I want to hold onto the good before its deleted. Before these memories start to fade away. I guess thats all I really have to say.

Written a while back, it is no longer important.