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Heaven or Hell? Life or Death? Love or Pain?
Three questions that change everything. Choosing the right answer depends on many things. What it is that makes you choose on over the other? I used to think I knew which I would choose. Now, I no longer know. From pain I grow stronger, but I seek death. Love makes me weaker, but I want to live. Strange how things can change in a single instance, yet fall right back the way they always were before. What if I don't choose? What if I ignore them all? What will I feel then, what will happen then? I never want anyone to feel sorry for me, I don't feel sorry for me, so why should anyone else? I know where I will end up, and what I will become. No matter what happens between now and then, nothing will change that. Screw those three questions, for now I choose no answers for them. My tale has already been written, it can not be changed. I'm left alone most of the time, when I'm not I cherish those times, yet I know they will end. So why even look forward to such a ridiculous concept anymore? A purpose and a path, I have always had both. I just never cared to walk the path, and live for the purpose. Now I will, nothing will stop me. I'm alive inside my self once again. I have been dead for far too long. The few who cared and never with pity I will always cherish. For those who loved, and only because they wanted to, I will never forget. But, for those who looked down on me, felt sorry for me, and turned away from me, I will despise even in death.

The door is open, and it will not close again. Time still moves forward, and so shall I. I will live for the moment, and not wait for the moment to never come. I've been a fool for far too long and I have been dead inside for many years. I will no longer look with anticipation, for what you can't wait for may simply never even come to pass. This is my crossroad in life. The one I have to make one single choice. Choose my direction wisely and never look back.